Wednesday, July 28, 2010

...been a while

It's been a while, I know. I don't even know where to start. I'm still here, in the damn shelter that I've been staying at... but am finally moving out to my own place this week. John and I are still obviously separated. I filed for divorce almost two months ago... John still hasn't responded to the paperwork, so that's at a standstill. I guess I need to figure out where to get the money to have him served. It's not fair. I just want to be free of this shit. I need to have the finalization to realize that I deserve better and I should stop caring about him. If that makes sense. I also really need to have custody stuff down, in stone. It would be pretty nice if he also had a legal obligation to start paying me some damn child support.
Other than that, I've been making it I guess. I am/was sorta seeing someone... but that is probably done now. I'm done being treated like crap and I think that this whole stuff with John has made me hyper aware of how I want to be treated. Anyway, this guy hasn't really done anything horrible... but he just does some stuff that I don't see myself being comfortable with in the long run. Today was the last straw when we were supposed to go to breakfast together and he didn't return my phone call, then didn't call or text the rest of the day with some kind of apology/explanation.

On a side note, I started playing rugby. It's awesome... but I'm so so sore. I absolutely LOVE everyone on my team though. I can't wait to get to know them better. I've been lacking in the friend department for way too long.